This time of year brings bitter sweet feelings. On one hand I'm preparing for the excitement of preschool and on the other hand I'm sad that we are down to our last few months of Early Intervention. I am so appreciative of the professionals that we have had in our lives to help us out with Isaiah and his special needs and a lot of time I feel undeserving of the help. I feel like the past (almost) year has brought forth so many emotions, and in fact I know it has. There are times that I have seen facebook posts of moms with "normally" developing children and honestly there are times that I feel like shaking those moms and saying "YOU DON'T KNOW HOW EASY YOU HAVE IT!!!" You have no idea what it's like to have a three year old who can't say "Mama" that's all I selfishly want!!! But I know where we were, I know where we are now, and I can say that I thank God every day for the professionals in my life and for Isaiah because God knows that it has made me a better mom. I know that there will always be people out there with children with even more needs than mine and with God forbid a terminal illness.
I know that there will be people who criticize me for any of this during the past year, might feel like I'm too opinionated, or like I'm putting my child in too much of a "structured" setting but frankly I don't care. ;) Yep...I said it. Maybe it's just been too long since I've had a good day with the kids but hey....it's been a good day. For once I feel like my meetings with our professionals have paid off and I'm not in tears at the end of the day .... every day. For once I feel like my almost three year old had a really good and happy day.
Parenting is really the hardest job in the world but it's the best job. I love my children and I wouldn't trade any of it. I have a bond with them that is indescribable and I thank God every day that he deemed me worthy of being the mother to our boys.
